For, There Were Better Times I Have Known...

Everything in life is so dynamic, nothing is a fix! People often tell me that time changes everything. I have seen some of these changes happening around me, within me. But, I have always pretended to be unaffected, by the change, the alterations. Yet, there are some times harder than that, when you find it difficult to overlook things, finding it impossible to adjust with the needed adjustments. How do you live with it? How do you solve such things? Is there even a solution? Are there any answers? You are bound to live on, with or without these answers, for time never halts for anyone, life moves on!

There are moments when you find yourself alone in the crowd; for, everyone around means nothing to you, you mean nothing to anyone! It is not a feeling too joyous; yet, there are things worse than that. When it's not a crowd, when the crowd means a lot to you and yet you mean nothing to them; you've a million friends but are friend to none! It feels awkward, it feels painful, knowing things weren't the same earlier, there were better times. It's hard to adjust with the change, and such is a change you hated! 

A friend might never turn a foe, but a friend turning a stranger is no better!

The Perfect Week!

The silence isn't so bad 

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

There are moments when minutest of the minute things remind you of something, someone. The classroom you love only because she was there once. 
Guava juice that you sip daily, for it tastes like your past with her. 
The small bed in your living room where you had shared your sleep. 

It's like giving the world a new perspective. Giving new meaning to things, moments and the time.

It was your perfect week. Those seven days were the best you had.
There has been many joyous occasions, merry days, lovely moments but the whole life means nothing in front of those 7 days. Nothing equals them.


You still sometimes close your eyes just to have those moments back. The first glimpse of her; nothing can match it. Desires; getting what you desired once. Present; knowing things won't be the same again, for you have lived the best times and not any day is going to be the same again. Such things aren't forever!
You'll have to do without them. Such is life!

Renewal!

Walking down the memory lane!

I have often wondered 'what if they are the bitter of the bitter-sweet memories?'

It's like I've been here before, I've traveled this road before, it's not deja vu,  but a feeling of having been through the same phase earlier. You already know how it feels to be there,  you had come out of it earlier and yet, there is no way you know now to end it. Every time you reach here, it feels different, it feels new. It feels sweet, sometimes. Pain!


You tell the whole world and still feeling unheard. Feeling lonely, not alone! Experiencing pain, not hurt! This is like not having somebody to comfort you, for those million friends you have are just them, friends, but comforter is a level higher, a level lower maybe, but a different level!

Deep within, you know this is going to pass yet again, but nothing soothes you, for life is not about being satisfied, it's rather about finding a new thing every now and then to complicate it even more! Such is Life!