2020. A year that many argue that has been the worst possible year. Even though I don't completely agree or side with this viewpoint, but I think something did change within me this year, and agreeably it is not a happy change. It's nothing new to me - change, I have been somebody who felt changed and then push myself back to my original self even if it took a hell lot of work. But now I suddenly find it impossible to go back to what I used to be.